baby--xiia0zhux

2009-04-29T22:46:00.000-07:00

didnt update for quite longg..n no one seems to care also..=.=
aiyaaas dunn care lerhh..
anyways iie now already everydae al0ne lia0s..
yawns,today exam lia0s..

today(290409) is english..
dhhen is super suay 1 l0rhhs..after dhhe nation flag ting n dhhe anthem ting finsih dhhen my class got to stay behind..dhhe principle tok to us..
guess wadd..dhhe principle started saeing miie..
sae wadd "gurl,ure hair are all over.." dhhen wadd "ure handphone was hanging on ure neck.." dhhen "girl,n euu are still chewing gum.." iie was like wtff..dhhen iie die die dunn amitt datt iie was chewing..(but infact,iie was*lols*) dhhen principle finish toking,dhhe DM(discipline master)
came find miie..dhhen take my student pass n tell miie after exam go find him..

exam finish,iie go find him..guess wadd..
HE WANNTS TO DYE MY HAIR..WTFF!!=x
my hair dunn have colour l0rhhs..iie so guaii 1..=x hahas..
lols.. boredddd~x.x nob0dy to tok ,nobody care ,nobody to go out..waddever..T.T

-xiia0zhux;D

2009-03-30T03:21:00.000-07:00

its funny n dhhe guy wearing dhhe white pants dance quite nicee.. :DD

enjoys~~haahas..

-BABY-xiia0zhux

2009-03-25T04:37:00.001-07:00

todae didnt q0 sk0l..was having fever n sum headspinn..x.x haiix..
lalas..hu cares..=.=
hmm..dhhe stupidd sk0l n0w if absent dhhen will sms my parents l0rhhs..verii wadd derhh l0rhhs..zzz..
nbm nbm..damn it..ytd iie l0se my m0ney..iie just quit my j0b n dhhen l0se my m0ney..wtff!!
n iie need get MONEY URGENTLY!!x.x haiix..

siians..iie neeed find j0bbb..iie quit dhhe j0b c0z dhhe b0ss EVERYTIME when going to take pay dhen he keep got ALORT excuse to delay lorhhs..haiix..
nbm dunn wann waste my brain cells tinking 0f datt idi0t..=x hahas!
hmm..dhhen 0wn alot ppl money n my blogshop derhh GEO lens..got problem..
haiix..if my supplier kena fined 0r caught dhhen iie oso will kena fined or caught sia..x.x
dhhe stupid government lurhhs idi0t 0nly..=(
got other blog already kena fined $2500 already!!is $2500 EACHH!!>.<

siians!!duno yy iie quit tis j0b lerhhs dhhen g0t SOOOO MANY money problems!!x.x haiix haiix haiix!!sadded
BUTT!!even iie neeeeddd money like sia0 w0men..iie still w0nt d0 against LAW derhh tings..x.x euu cann sae iie HUM JI or wadd iie dunn care c0z iie really dunn like in jail or go girls home iie see b4..x.x is not wadd iie will wann to go..iie rather m0re tiredd dhhen kena caught lia0s dhhen must stay at a stupidd place which cant cum 0ut..x.x

-BABY-xiia0zhux

2009-03-19T12:49:00.001-07:00

compare dhhe left n dhhe right..dhhe right was dhhe menu,.

is dhhe same dish.. LOLS..
BIGG BIGG different pls..=.= (not ordeded by me)
hahahas..=x

iie only take sum pic 0f dhhe f0od we eat..
c0z dhhe rest dhhey all eat it straight n iie cant take pic 0f it..=(

t0dae we(miie,my laobu,br0,br0's stead)went go east coste todae..=] my br0ther's stead(ruby)birthdae tmr dhhen dhey g0 "camp" dhere..hahas.. iie didnt stay dhere..iie 0ni g0 dhere plae..=]

went t0 arcard t0 plae my fav game..DDR!!=]
dance dance revolution!!!WOOT!!
sadly iie g0ne no0ber dhhen last time..=(
c0z t0o l0ng didnt plae..
iie chi0ng DDR al0rt sia..l0ls..1hit plae dun0 h0w mani game l0rhhs..dhhen ppl keep see see see..=.= n s0me wait t0 plae untill dhey g0 d0wn bowling walk walk n c0me up iie still plaeing..=x
PS lurhhs..iie didnt plae s0 l0ng..dhhen miss it SOOOOO MUCH..=(
n0 b0die pei miie plae oso..dhhen my da sa0(ruby) plae wibb miie..hahas..
after plaeing g0ne bathe..=] dhhen saw sum my skol ppl..but dhey dunn seems to n0e miie..o.o l0ls..anyting..x.x

go bathe still must give 5ocent..=.=
dhhen go inside iie wait verii l0ng lia0s dhen got 1 AUNTY..she came in later dhhen miie l0rhhs..dhhen got ppl c0me 0ut dhhen she g0 bring her son all squess miie thr0ugh dhhen go into dhhe bath ting..=.=
fck sia..zzz..
iie cant sc0ld her c0z my mum sum where nearby..DAMN!!
pek keh ley..=( nbm iie jie jie let small kidd..=x )
hahas!

dhhen after datt we went to makan..=] LOOK AT DHHE PIC ON TOP^^^..
=.= lols..big different pls!but quite nice though..x.x lalalas
expensive derhh l0rhhs..=(
hahas..dae end..gtg.. father come bring miie n mum go back home..
BUT!!tmr..
IIE WILL BE BACK!!
hhaahahahas..=x
hmmm..cann sae as quite a happy dae..=]

-BABY-xiia0zhux

2009-03-18T23:49:00.000-07:00

was oout wibb my laopo..=]

she wearing dhhe flowery dress she bought from malaysia..lols

she keep saeing miie..cause iie eveytime wear black..=.= lalalas!hahas..

normal b0red dae..x.x

my fringe seems sh0rter..=( s0bs!x.x

sadsad..my hair so sh0rt lurhhs!!wann die..x.x

-BABY-xiia0zhux

2009-03-15T13:14:00.000-07:00

TIS IS MY PAST-ed...now my hand is puree..=x lols

all are my past..now iie've st0p..trying n f0rcing myself not t0 d0..

but hu n0es dhhe m0re iie try n f0rce myself,when iie cant try annym0re,

iie w0uld cut even l0nger,deeper,m0re..? iie dunn even n0e myself

n tis is which iie dunn wanna tink..x.x

-BABY-xiia0zhux

2009-03-14T08:18:00.000-07:00

happy dae!!=] we went boonlay!!we go see dhere derhh 77th street!!
DAMN NICE! cause got gothic gothic stuff..=]
hahas..dhhen had dinner wibb samantha,xiuling,celesttine(mao mao) at YakiYakiBo..=]

iie ordered tis..=] tako ball!!so nice to eat norhhs!=] my first time at yakiyakibo..hahas..

dhhen sam see tis shop datt cann do DIY cake..l0oks so funn..

hahas..dhhen she d0 f0r her stead..=]

dhhen everybody went homE..=]

-xiia0zhux

2009-03-05T22:17:00.000-08:00

iie tink 0ver n 0ver again.. iie'm just a r0tten apple..
my "rotten" does mean pai kia 0r wadd..is just meaning,iie'm just t0o h0peless..
iie dunn wanna waste ppl's time datt trying t0 help miie..
in all ways,studies,life,my mind..so on..
iie realli still trying my best..
iie'm trying t0 f0rce my limit t0 increase..
but n0 h0w much iie tried t0 increase my limit,dhhe stress n everyting is pushing miie t0 dhhe end m0re..

iie realli dun0 wadd iie will 0r may d0 if my limit already t0uches dhhe end..
iie tink just being al0ne may help everyb0dy..
every 1 is giving miie stress which sum didnt even realies datt dhey are..everytings are like,unture.. fake..
iie mean..m0re precentage 0f it..its like 99.9%?
like n0 differents f0r miie..
my unhappiness is much m0re dhhen dhhe happiness iie have..
even iie'm al0ne..if 1 day iie realli reached my limit, n0b0die will n0es 0r will sadd ab0ut it..=]
0r may sum c0uld be even happy ab0ut it?mayb...

everytime ppl will say,iie everyting also will laugh 1 lurhhs..even its a damn c0ld j0ke 0r sumtings..
but hu n0es?iie'm trying t0 f0rce myself t0 smile inf0rnt 0f any n every1 with anytings..
iie mayb smiling n0w..but is my heart smiling too?..
FAKE smiles..FAKE happiness..
everytings are FAKE!!t0tally FAKE!!

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-03-05T19:21:00.000-08:00

tis was like taken in jasmine(laopo)'s dad's car..o.o
sum ppl kena accident siooo..=x
hahas..dhhen traffic jamm..=(
lalalas..

meeting boss today quite late also..=.= dhhen was like..just follow my laopo l0rhhs..x.x
dhey walk walk dhhen later dhey go eat n iie trying to learn my stupidd maths which damn gives miie stress...=( haiix..
rotten apple is a rotten apple..no matter how hard iie study still dhe same..ritex..?x.x
lalalas..
dhhen later jasmine laopo n her family gtg dhhen left miie alone wait for my boss..=(
taken pay n rushed home.. .__.

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-03-04T19:04:00.000-08:00

working dhhen suddenyl saw tis BIG mao mao!!O.O

tis was taken when iie sitting BESIDE it..lols..

after working dhhen must wait for boss to cum give us pay..=(
waited super long..dhhen iie spend my time folding all tis..

starting from left:
big crane,heart,medium crane,pop out heart,star,small crane..
middle:5ROSE..=] though canot see properly..=(
if any1 wann see tell miie do infront of euu when we are out together..(:

dhhen wait till 7plus already..iie must go lia0s..=( dhhen tell boss to meet us tmr..x.x
always liddat 1..everytime wen taking pay dhhen he keep got tings to do..lalalas!
dhhen iie sit tis mrt NOBODIE 1 sia..O.O okays lurhhs hardly got any1..=x damn empty pls..x.x

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-03-03T19:28:00.000-08:00

all tis pic was taken in school during D&T period..=]

nice ritex..hahas..=]

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-02-28T17:21:00.000-08:00

everytings is over!!damn it..so moody..=(
haiix..lalas..exams also over..
ytd(270209) was like..iie sumh0w sc0lded my teacher..=x
n0rtt my fualt l0rhhs!!is dat stupidd wann wann!! she kpkb so much..

was doing maths exam..
dhhen iie late..iie come sk0l ab0ut 8.30am?o.o which iie suppose to c0me sk0l at 7.20..=.= lalas..dhhen later reached sk0l dhhen do my test,iie got no calculator..dhhen iie st0ne..=(
dhhen iie ask teacher(ROHAIYA) help miie lend..she fxxking tell miie exam can lend..
FINE..dhhen iie sit dhere stone l0rhhs..

dhhen later PUALINE ASK TEACHER SHE NEED CALCULATOR..DHHE FXXKING TEACHER HELP HER..dhhen 0fc0z iie STARE at her..
dhhen she take dhhe calculator fr0m zhan ming l0rhhs..a china boy..o.o
my friend 0kays!!=x
hahas..dhhen n0w wadd,iie dun0 h0w use his calculator!!damn c0mplicated sia!!
c0z got duno wadd fraction dhhen wadd chinese derhhs..dhhen iie st0ne again..=.=

wait till another teacher c0me,which is WANN WANN!!later iie tell her help miie give back to zhan ming dhhe calculator l0rhhs..dhhen iie wann lend fr0m 0ther friends which iie n0e h0w t0 use their calculator,callista..dhhen iie ask her(teacher) iie wann lend..
she keep stare at miie dhhen iie stare back dhhen dsshe keep staring at miie!!FXXK UPP!!
dhhen time going finish already!!iie just call callista lend miie..dhhen WAN WAN sc0ld her..sae wadd exam can0rtt lend!dhhen dun0 wadd crap..iie h0t lia0s..
iie sh0ut at her sae "I ASK YOU I NEED LEND THEN YOU SEE SEE SEE..KEEP LOOK AT ME THEN I L0OK AT YOU,I CAN CALCULATOR THE MATHS MEHH!!"
lols..dhhen iie cl0se my paper n bl0ody sit dhere n stare at her..

hahas..dhhen she go take from callista dhhe callculator n put on my table..BECAUSE OF HER,I NO MORE TIME!!wasted time on datt stupidd pers0n..
n also make callista kena sc0ld..

*SORRY CALLISTA!!x.x

haiix..damn..
everyting so badd..=( haiix..iie cried ytd again..iie'm so stress 0ut..
ppl datt n0w miie,sh0uld n0e wadd iie'm stress 0f EVERYTIME..
family friend sk0l EVERYTING..=(
m0stly 0fc0z my family..SXXKS!!x.x
haiix..

-*恨BABY-xiia0zhuzhux

2009-02-16T14:59:00.000-08:00

iie really dun0 wadd iie had d0ne wr0ng again..n tis time..
iie n dhhe k0r..really 0ver.. he dunn wish to be my k0r anym0re n delete my c0ntact even..he tell miie n0rtt t0 sms him..
after seeing tis msg..iie h0lding my tears.. till finish sk0l..n iie'm al0ne..
my tears just came falling..
iie really got no ideal wadd iie d0ne..he didnt even wanna tell miie wadd iie d0ne wr0ng..
n0 matter wadd,iie'm s0rry t0 waste ure time..

iie just b0ught new blades n n0w iie see tis msg..
iie was like..mayb is dhhe g0d trying t0 tell miie t0 q0 back t0 my last time?..
iie'm still h0lding back..if iie really cut,iie'm scared he c0uld be m0re angriie..

0r..d0 he even care?iie really dun0..
iie just cant have any emotions..
iie have been emotionless since just ended sk0l..even iie see my ma0 ma0(ver0n) n my la0po(jasmine)..cause iie'm scared if iie do emotions,iie may iie cry inforn of dhhe wh0le crowd..x.x
haiix..anyway, tis wadd iie'm going to tell k0r,or iie cann sae,he isnt my k0r fr0m n0w 0n?..

*to you:
s0rry t0 waste s0 much time..iie'm really sorry..
even tough iie dunn really noe wadd iie d0ne again..sorry! iie just wish datt euu c0uld take q0od care 0f ureself..pls!

takiires!!

--恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-02-15T12:13:00.000-08:00

t0dae(15/02)..MY BIRTHDAE~~=]
hahas..la0peh gtg w0rk t0dae even th0ugh t0dae is sunday which is my birthdae..=(
dhhen iie,my la0bu(REAL MOTHER),br0(REAL BROTHER) n my br0ther's GF went out..
went to swensen~~ <33

hahas..at t0ms0n plaza.o.o
we ate al0rtt siaa!!=x at swensen we ate 1 chocolate f0ndue,1 waffle with ice cream,1 SFM(iie
oso dun0 wadds datt,dhhe recipe write 1..o.o) iie dunn rmb eating "SFM"... .__.
hahas..waddever,last but n0t least,3 plate 0f baked mussels!!iie like datt..
dhhe cheese 0n t0p damn nice!~woolala~ =x hahas!
*YUMMY~~ xP

hmm but 1 ch0colate fondue($20.40)+waffle($8.50)+"SFM"(6.20)+3 baked musseks($29.70)=64.80,plus GST n SVC n lalala =$76.25 siaa!!

dhhen after datt we b0ught my cake..=]
TIRAMISU cake!<33
heng 0n time pls!otherwise dhhe cake must save it f0r my 16years 0ld birthdae lerhh l0rhhss..x.x

hahas..

hmm..alth0ugh iie have unhappy tings keeptt happen,but luckily at least 0n my real birthdae my famnily still treat miie 0kae..0ther wise iie sure B0MB**..x.x
llaalalas..
iie wanna reb0rn my hair..>.<
damn it!my mum just w0nt let miie..T.T s0bx..

-BABY-xiia0zhux

2009-02-14T23:53:00.000-08:00

miie!hugging my bel0ved zhuzhu!<33>)

*la0g0ng n miie..=]

* la0g0ng n miie<33>

t0dae!iie went w0rking wibb la0q0nq(fi0na) n papa(justin)..

=] dhhe my papa..he didnt bring dhhe glue refiller..dhhen we all not enough glue!!=.=
thanks t0 papa..we earn damn least pls!x.x

dhhen sum h0w k0r again like angrie miie cause iie gtg w0rk..x.x

dhhen iie n0 m0od again l0rhhs..x.x

hmm..my la0g0ng see iie n0 m0od n like wann cry liddat dhhen she bring miie go minitoons see zhuzhu!=]

haahas..AND!!she even b0ught it f0r my smile!!OMG iie'm t0uched~

thanks la0g0ng!=] muuack<33

pls!is not datt she buy present dhhen iie happy okay..is because at least she bother to waste her money to get miie smiling..x.x

thanks y0u n s0rry la0g0ng!

thanks euu f0r even b0ther t0 waste m0ney t0 get miie smiling..=)

s0rry f0r wasting ure m0ney..=(

dhhen while going back home,when taking train,iie got a feeling datt ppl l0oking at miie tinking iie hugging a valentine present..=.=

hahas!abit shy..=x

n0 ch0se..gtg hugg my zhuzhux<33

dunn wan it squess inside my bagg..=( hahas..anyway,

LAOGONG!THANK YOU!~ =B

***AND,th0se datt didnt buy 0r get miie present,DUNN W0RRY!!iie w0nt hate euu 0r wadd lurhhs..=.=

iie also dunn wann euu all waste money..=(

so,euu all happy,iie oso will happy lerhhs..=]

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-02-14T21:45:00.000-08:00

haiix..thanks t0 l0vell al0rtt!!
th0ugh iie n my k0r still like stragers..x.x
aiyaas dun0 lurhhs..l0vell helped to make my k0r n miie patch back t0 gans..
iie dunn even n0e it w0rks an0rtt..but at least n0w iie still cann call him k0r n he still g0t c0r miie mei..but like he still angrie miie..x.x
iie also wadd else iie d0ne wr0ng..even t0ugh iie dun0 wadd iie d0ne wr0ng,iie kept saeing s0rrie t0 k0r..x.x
iie just dunn wann make anyone n0rtt happy..

AND,even t0ugh,iie n my k0r n0w 0kae 0kae,but iie also wont be meeting ppl unless iie really have to..iie will kust keep w0rking..
t0 makee myself n0rtt t0 tink 0f stuff..=(
recentlly,iie tinked 0f "him" again.."him" is my ex..since tis ex.. iie didnt have stead again..
iie dunn dare t0 accept anyone..x.x
even t0ugh t0 pers0n datt ask miie f0r stead is a q0od guy,iie just cant make myself t0 f0rget my past..T.T haiix..
dun0 lurhhs siians!

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-02-13T22:36:00.000-08:00

iie didnt went to sk0l t0dae(13/02/09)..x.x eyes were quite shallown..zzz..
iie really duno wadd dhhe hell is going on!!
dhhe fck upp life is making miie madd already!! my birthdae is just tis week..n iie have actually plan to go out celebrate with my gans n sum friend..but its like most of dhem are not really seems to be happy about it though..x.x
haiix..iie quaral with two of my gans datt iie l0ve m0st..which is my 1 k0r n 1 jie..

my jie's st0ry is like..euu sh0uld n0e,we n0w 0f daes already like quarrelling even we are t0king..n ytd, is like iie'm with my la0po..
actually w0rking..but last min dhhe papa cant cum n we all cant w0rk c0z dhhe tings all with him..but iie already half way meeting at dhhe place we suposed to w0rk..
also near my la0po's h0use..so iie taken bus with her..dhhen last min n0 w0rk iie g0 her h0use l0rhhs..dhhen plae dhhe d0g,t0k t0k..lalala~! dhhen we going take bus n go cut my hair dhhen she t0ok pic 0f her injured leg..o.o

ARHHS!it l0ok pain!!

poor laopo..it is pain isnt it..=(

later,iie got to go cut hair datt time,dhhen we were t0king ab0ut dhhe sat plan..dhhen she sae n0 m0ney so mayb n0rtt g0ing..iie was like..zzz..0kae..cause my jie 0wn her m0ney..dhhen iie called my jie,tinking datt she c0uld pay my la0po dhhen she got money cann cum on sat l0rhhs..
dhhen,my jie..she sae wadd,
0kae she pay my la0po back m0ney..dhhen she n0rtt g0ing 0n sat..
0kae,damn it!!iie damn h0t already..everyb0die like dun wann g0..dhhen iie tell jie,dunn go dunn go..no need go already,n iie hanged..
OKAY!tis my fault..of hanging ppl ..but!!PLS UNDERSTAND LEY!!
if euu angriie,euu comfirm hot 1 ritex?!zzz..cause is like,my jie,she always sae she sure cum she sure will q0 n lalla..dhhen because 0f dhhe fck upp m0ney ting n she telling miie she n0rtt cuming..pls!iie cann dunn q0 plae pool ,plae arcade n waddever de l0rhhs!dhhen just q0 0ut with my gans n friends walk walk t0k t0k iie already will be happy lerhhs!!T.T
datt all datt iie wanted..just 1 happy n funn time with ppl iie l0ve..=(

haiix..iie was damn fck upp fed up already..iie just send dhhe msg to everyone
"sat everting n0 m0re..iie everyting also dunn wann already..euu all with ure stead de dhhen q0,busy de ppl dhhen q0 busy,dunn wann cum de ppl,euu will be happy to hear tis right..iie w0nt give a damn anym0re"..
0kay iie admit..wadd iie wr0te will make th0se datt are actually g0ing n d0ne n0ting wr0ng angriie lurhhs..butt iie was in SUPER badd m0od..=(
iie dunn need euu all t0 buy present f0r miie..iie just wanna have funn datts all..
iie wanna t0 be happy..tings just aint right tis few weeks..T.T w0rst dhhen n0rmal..x.x

haiix..dhhen k0r is like..dhhe 1 msg 0f dhhe todae makes miie n0 m0od,sad n cry..x.x
he tinking datt iie'm just sh0wing attitude.. "Ok since you like show attitude....show all u like ok...dun call me ur k0r anymore.." tis sentence..x.x
AND tis msg makes miie cry more!!summore iie'm working pls..x.x
"then ok i am not ur god bro anymore..coz u FUCKing like to give attitude..Good bye.."

T.T yy cant anyone understand..x.x
wadd cause miie to give attitude..wadd makes miie fed out..
wadd makes miie sadd n angriie..
iie really hope at least he cann understand..but n0..he dunn..T.T haiix..
iie wann mia..iie will just meet ppl if really is importand n unless of my blogshop ting..
otherwise my time will only be at home or working n sk0ll..datts all..x.x
ppl may sae,l0sing dhem aint dhhe end..still cann make new friends or waddever..but euu all are not miie..euu all just dunn understand..iie realli l0ve dhem..
iie n0e dhey aint badd..just datt dhey dunn understand miie..0r iie cann sae,n0 0ne understands miie..T.T

haiix..d0 euu all even n0e,tis k0r is dhhe 0nly 1 am0ng so many ans of mine..he's dhhe one datt make miie cry most..=(

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-02-07T05:27:00.000-08:00

iie really duno wadd happen..everytings like really change..
even when iie 'm toking to my jie,we are oso like quarallying liddat..

jie t0ld miie her jie dunn like miie..iie'm n0rtt surprised iie'm just siians..

when dhhe dae iie met my jie n her jie,iie already see her n have a feeling datt she dunn really likes miie..datts yy iie ch0se n0rtt t0 l0ok at dhem..trying to be dissract by l0oking at buses..=.=

even my an0ther jie(simin) who was later dhhen miie..=.=

she came n we went to dhhe lan..iie oso ch0se t0 walk faster dhen usual..c0z dunn wann have too much eye c0ntact wibb my jie's jie..dhhe one hu dunn like miie..

no ch0se..anyone wannts to hate miie,iie got noting to sae..

iie already said,iie cant blame anyone..x.x

or iie cann sae,born to be hated?o.o

lalalas..iie dunn give a damn..zzz..

haiix..

iie still was planing a happy n fun celebration wibb my gans n friends..
now iie just scared it will not even be not happy..iie just scared if on datt dae..
badd tings will happen..
iie dunn wish to quaral wibb ppl when we are suppose to be happy..T.T

planning is like meet few of dhem at tpy 1st dhhen tahe bus go east coste together..mayb cycling mayb plaeing pool mayb plaeing arcard..
should be like tis..butt nort realli comfirm coz al0rtt still didnt c0mfirm wibb miie going an0rtt..x.x
haiix..
nortt going or going,euu all happy..iie w0nt sae anyting anym0re..as l0ng as euu all happy jiu cann lia0s..if n0 0nes wanna g0 os0 fine..iie will just go sum place myself..
also nort 1st time iie'm left al0ne..x.x

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-02-05T22:49:00.000-08:00

was really hopeing to have fun n be very happy with my gans n friend on next sat when we go out n celebrate my birthdae..
but is like..eveytings turns 0ut badd n unhappy tis week(dhe week b4 my birthdae)
ii really got no idea..ii sms my gans n friends..iie did said that if cant cum dhhen never mind..
c0z ii n0e is a valentine dae..x.x ii cant celebrate on my actuall birthdae date..
c0mfirm must with parents 1 wadd..dhhen wadd euu expect miie to do?

now is like is my fault to be born on 15feb l0rhhs?if cann cum jiu cum..can0rt cum als0 never mind wadd..just inform miie cann lerhhs..iie dunn expect wadd fr0m euu all..iie just wish to have fun..datts all..is datt too hard?
iie really duno..dhhe sms is really hurt..
dhhe msg was like "Wa u are DAMN selfish no wonder everybody dun WANT to go.." tis sentence make miie cry..T.T
haiix..iie'm n0rtt saeing hu sae tis..x.x
IIE NOE IIE AM SELFISH..sorry datt iie am b0rn on 15feb!n cant go out on dhhe dae..
iie w0nt blame anyone if n0 b0die cum out with miie..iie still will go out..MYSELF..T.T

haiix..

-BABY-xiia0zhux

2009-01-23T11:16:00.000-08:00

ii wasnt in any m0od t0 d0 anyting..x.x
haiix..tinking 0f tings ii'm n0rtt suposed to..T.T
ii just cant st0p it..just upl0aded sum tings..fer n0ting..=.=
lalalas..

my drawing..my feelings..x.x haiix

alone..x.x

all alone on dhhe road..

-恨BABY-xiia0zhuzhux

2009-01-22T21:51:00.000-08:00

ytd fcks sia!!my f0ne kene c0nviscate!!
by dhhe stupid _l_ MR K0H WEI PENG or waddever his name..zzz!!c0z when just after recess V3 ask miie to send him all my techno songs..dhhen just let him see himself l0rhhs..dhhen iie back t0 sleep..half sleep half awake,ii see a teacher..MR KOH..dhhe gay!=x hahas!dhhen he saw V3 using f0ne..dhhen ask him give him dhhe f0ne..he l0ok at miie..=.= ii tell him dunn give mine..dhhen he gave his f0ne..dhhen,DHHE FCKER,SAE DHHE AN0THER F0NE..dhhen!!V3 realli give him!!WTFF!!zzz...

neber mind..dhhen ii q0 find dhhe teacher..
datt fcker!!tell me wadd wann dhe f0ne dhhen after go find him..ii must work ley!!!fcker!
neber mind..ii stay back..ii go find him..
HE NO WHERE TO BE FOUND!!dhhen ii n V3 stand at 0utside staff r0om like idi0t liddat!!CHEE BAII!!tmd damn PEK KEH!!dhhen finally he cum..dhhen he sae..
he gave t0 mr sim 0ur f0ne..which is my sch0ol "2nd" DM..dhhe SAINTER CLOSS!!he l0oks like..=X hahas!!

dhhen we q0 find mr sim l0rhhs..he at dhhe DC(detention class)c0rner..we asked him..he sae must datt mr k0h sae let us q0 dhhen mr sim dhhen cann give us baack 0ur f0ne..dhhen we q0 find datt bastard l0rhhs..dhhen DATT FCKER!!N0WHERE T0 BE FOUND AGAIN!! use 0ther teacher's f0ne c0r him,he oso didnt pick up..NAABEH!!

dhhen bo bian q0 back find mr sim..all dhhe way,ii like DOG liddat..follow where ever mr sim qo..LUCKY HE DIDNT GO TOILET!!=X
hahas!l0ls..dhhen mr sim sae wadd,dhhe mr k0h c0mment ab0ut miie wadd "expectually the girl very rude.."
when ii was like..WTHH!!CB he wann see wadd is c0r RUDE izzt??!!zzz!
but in dhhe end dhhe kind sainter closs sae,we do DC todae dhhen give back us 0ur f0ne 1st..=.=
0kae l0rhhs..haiix siian!

after ii get my f0ne ii run straight 0ut t0 find public f0ne t0 c0r my la0q0nq(fi0na) n my b0ss..heng my b0ss haven reach..0therwise ii sure die!!=x
lalals!dhhen same go t0 w0rk wibb la0q0nq n papa l0rhhs..dhhe always make ppl vomit bl0od derhh papa..=.=
hahas..siians!get pay t0dae..soo little..x.x haiix..
b0ught 1 hoodie,1shirt n almost all gone..x.x siians!have t0 chi0ng w0rk again..x.x
haiix..

-恨BABY-xiia0zhuzhux

2009-01-19T11:34:00.000-08:00

ii w0nder yy am ii so suay tis few weeks..0r ii cann say,tis few YEARS..x.x
haiix..sat(17/01) ii n my la0q0nq(fi0na) say hao gp work dhhe pr0moter together dhhen after that dhhen go work my flyers..meet at tpy at 9+am..
dhe night before,ii scared if ii sleep ii may over sleep..so,ii didnt sleep at all..tinking that everyting will goes ritex..
8+ la0q0nq sms miie..saying that she going to bath..so am ii..
wait till ii bath out,my f0ne became s0t..
cant 0n,cant sms,cant c0r..ii tried putting it t0 charge..incase is cause n0 batt..
but n0..cant 0n os0..t0tally blank..ii was so damn pek keh..ii throw ii smack ii tried taking dhhe battrie dhhe sim card..almost everyting..n put back..still didnt w0rk!!omggg!!
10+ ALREADY!!OMGOMGOMGOMG!!dhhen finaly w0rk..zzz..x.x

ii was like..dead..n0 need w0rk dhhe pr0moter lerhhs..sure damn late 1..c0z is at poungol area w0rk ley!!wtff..dhhen n0 ch0se.. n sumore,la0q0nq say n0 m0od w0rk..
so,sms-ed dhhe pers0n n say cant w0rk..AGAIN*..zzz...
n when ii 0n my f0ne is like..wthh..la0q0nq spammmm!!=x
sc0ld miie sum0re l0rhhs..T.T
ii late os0 n0rtt ii wann derhh marhhs..dhhen iie explained..she du lann.. ii dunn blame her..c0z she fr0m w0odlen dhere c0me untill tpy wait miie 1 h0ur liddat ley!!x.x
but,she du lann..ii os0 pek keh wadd..os0 n0rtt iie wann my f0ne t0 g0 s0t n make miie late..x.x

dhhen later,ii run d0wn stair already,II FORGET TAKE MY WALLET N KEYS..ii was like wthhh..x.x run back t0 h0use,take n run 0ut again..dhhen run t0 busst0p,DHHE FCKING BUS 88 RUN!!WTFF!!&^%$#@#!! damn du lann..D;<
haiix..dhhen wait another bus88 g tpy..was tinking la0q0nq still at dhere,ii still got sms her n tell her ii c0ming already..so iie rush n run like sia0 charb0h..
dhhen,reach,end upp?she gone..ii ask her where she,she say she go find stead..zzz..
ii n0rtt blaming her..just at least tell miie that she's n0rtt dhere already?better dhhen iie run q0 dhere d0 n0tting?x.x
ii waited 2h0ur+ f0r dhhe flyer's b0ss c0me give miie flyers..actually ii os0 n0 m0od d0..n0 ch0se..is ii dunn d0,all 0ur pay will be g0ne..T.T
so ii n papa w0rk l0rhhs..x.x
0ni he chi0ng..ii at dhere d0ing like half-dead liddat..zzz...

tis is 1 0f my SUAY day..READ PROPERLY!!ONE OF DHHE SUAY DAY!!
which means,MORE DHHEN 1 DAY IS SUAY!!x.x
dunn wann say b0t th0se stupidd suay tings..
haiix..another tings..

my sweetiie..she's n0w against miie..ii got n0 ideal yy..she said she say badd tings behind miie c0z ii say badd tings 0f her os0..WHICH II DIDNT!!all ii tell her "ex" was like her past tings..n ii did t0ld dhhe "ex" datt it is her past!!n0w ii dunn0..c0z ii didnt g0 0ut with her verii l0ng time..
iie kept repeating saying that "IS HER PAST!!NOW II DUNO!!"
dunn belive,ask dhhe PERS0N!!("ex")
ii was like..haiix..iie realli did wann t0 treat her like my sisters..but all she did was like..making us n0rtt t0 trust her..she tell al0rtt lies which ii hardly rmb anyting n0w..(II GOT STM OKAY!!)
she said she hear fr0m dhhe "ex" m0uth that he t0ld her that ii say badd tings ab0ut her..dhhen,asked him,he say didnt..ii realli dun0 hu t0 belive..iie wann t0 call all 0ut n ask pr0perly..is n0rtt ii wann find tr0uble 0r wadd..
is like,wadd ii did do,ii dunn mind kena say..but n0w is,sumting ii didnt d0 at all!!
haiix..ii realli dun0.. T.T

-恨BABY-xiia0zhuzhux

2009-01-10T11:01:00.000-08:00

FUCKS LURHHS!!iie didnt q0 f0r w0rk..iie 0ver slept!!zzz..
haiix..my eye just t0o pain t0 0pen..T.T cried..budd os0 n0b0die caree..
iie writing bc0z 0f writing..like my bl0g is my friend lia0s..everyting tell my bl0g better dhhen tell 0thers..telling dhem are like giving tr0blem t0 dhem n wasting dheir time..iie rather t0k t0 my bl0g..my bl0g q0rtt n0 life..
n it w0nt be a waste 0f time tell my bl0g..my bl0g w0nt sae a single ting n0 matter wadd iie wrr0te 0r sae t0 it..=]

k0r d0esnt n0w iie'm crying when iie'm t0king t0 him..(iie tink)
even if he n0es..its w0nt change anyting ritex?haiix..dun0 lurhhs..
iie wastnt feeling q0od after all datt "airoplane(fei ji) has been given when iie ask my friends t0 pei miie..n dhhen t0t t0king t0 k0r iie will feel better..budd end upp iie cried m0re..
iie said,"iie like being alone..iie like myself t0 cry..iie like tinking 0f unhappy tings..iie like pushing all happiness away"..datts wadd iie said..
n iie dun0 is datt wadd iie wann..budd when sum1 is feeling badd..euu tink still will even tink s0 much when saeing sumting when in dhhe m0od 0f still crying?..

pls lurhhs..everyting my fualt..
iie push everyting..iie n0e..ppl just dun0 yy am iie d0ing all tis..
like wadd iie said..iie'm liddat..n iie dunn wish t0 change..
n0rtt changing fer any1..n0rtt even myself..iie dunn even trust myself..
wadd iie'm d0ing is wadd iie am..dunn like it,cann leave miie..everyb0die cann leave..
its n0rtt 1 st time datt ppl leave miie hurt-ed..x.x

-恨BABY-xiia0zhuzhux

2009-01-10T05:23:00.000-08:00

iie realli hatee sk0l..iie q0 sk0l f0r 3daes n 3 daes didnt q0 since dhhe sk0l start till n0w..
haiix.. q0inq sk0l ish like 'yy dhhe hell am iie here?!'..zzz..
everytime sees th0se friends,my heart realli pain..expectually her..T.T iie trust,iie like,iie treat her as 0wn sis.. n she turns her back 0n miie just bec0z she tinks iie change..budd she is dhhe 0ne datt change..n0w everyb0die in sk0l is like strangers fer miie..

iie HATE q0inq sk0l!! even n0w..my class actually still q0rtt ma0 ma0 n my la0po..
n n0w..my ma0ma0 transfer class..n0w 0ni my la0po..nn like wthh..
when after sk0l she wanns meet her friends dhhen iie have t0 r0t myself at any place al0ne..
haiix..everyb0die n0rtt busy jiu is habb stead..dhey have t0 q0 0ut n pei dheir stead..
N 0FC0Z IIE W0NT SAE 0R SC0LD DHHEM LURHHS!!
iie os0 q0rtt stead b4 n iie n0w datt feeliing wadd!!x.x
iie just hatee my lifee..everyting al0ne..
whhen iie need summ0ne..everyb0die busy even if iie asked dhem..
haiix..

iie realli feel like quitting sk0l n chi0ng w0rk as much as iie like..dhhe pr0blem is.. IIE CANT!!my parents..x.x
iie hatee it!!iie have t0 chi0ng w0rk datt cannt fit int0 my STUPIDD w0rking time!! iie 0ni cann w0rk weekdaes after sk0l..n n0rtt everydae..cant w0rk at nitex..
w0rk sat budd n0rtt sundae..n must leave b4 6pm n reach h0me b4 6.30!!
LIKE WTH!!where dhhe hell iie find j0b at tis kind 0f STUPIDD TIME??!!
T.T

iie'm w0rking back my pr0moter j0b 0n sat 0ni..iie t0ld dhhe b0ss datt iie mayb cant even w0rk minimum 2daes per week..x.x
budd iie tmr starting..which is 10/01/09(sat)..
n n0w wadd!!n0w 5.12 am already iie still haven sleep..=.=
d0rts!

actually jie said t0 q0 wibb miie..iie asked her t0 w0rk t0gether b0c0z she finding 1 t0o..n n0w,iie have t0 w0rk al0ne..agin..x.x
iie'm n0rtt blaming her..c0z she have t0 q0 back sk0l..budd is like..iie asked 0thers friends os0..budd all?"cant q0..t0o far..pei staed,q0 0ut wibb stead"..lalalas!!zzz..
haiix..suaa..iie n0w realli BWG(bo wei g0ng)!! its my life..everyting dhhe same which neber changed n0 matter wadd..n it is dhhe same g0es t0 miie..
iie w0nt change..n0 changing fer any1..0r anyting..EVER AGAIN!! q0od 0r badd is depend 0n h0w euu see..is n0rtt wadd iie am t0 change!!UNDERSTAND!!x.x

iie realli realli wish..t0 have my REAL friends n sister n gans datt realli n0es n understand miie..
iie have al0rtt..budd iie dunn realli even c0ntact dhem..m0st are t0o busy..n0rtt even 1 single dae f0r miie!!T.T
haiix..iie wann friends in sk0l..iie wann friends 0utside sk0l..IIE WANN TRUE FRIENDS!!
iie dunn wann friends datt turns dhhe back 0n miie 0r friends datt sae badd tings behind miie!!n even w0rst!!sae sumting badd datt iie didnt even d0!!>:(
IIE HATEE!!

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2009-01-03T12:48:00.000-08:00

t0dae(3/01/09) we(cassandra,ver0n,sukii,miie) all 1st time q0 0ut t0gether ehh..=] iie intr0 my friends f0rever(ver0n n cassandra) t0 jie ytd..xD

hahas..

hmm we went q0 far first..walk walk niaas..c0z iie br0ke..SUM M0RE YTD L0ST MY WALLET,MY EZ-LINK N ALL MY M0NEY!!!wthhx.x

siians!!iie was like..must keep ask my friends t0 lend miie m0ney t0 take bus all tis l0rhhs..

b0 biian!!iie n0 m0ney dunn wann q0 0ut derhhs..budd dhey keep wann q0 0ut t0gther dhhen b0 biian l0rhhs..x.x

arrhhs!!iie hatee dhhe feeling 0f b0rr0wing m0ney fr0m friends..zzz..

lalalas..dhhen walk walk walk..iie tink 0f MY LOVE!!GOTHIC SHOP!!=x

wakakakas!dhhen iie find 1 r0und dhhen find l0rhhs..=.=

iie was like madd siaa..see g0thic cl0thes 0r tings iie will be so damn in l0ve pls!!xD

budd n0 m0ney buyy..x.x

haiix..dhhen neber mind..dhhen dhey wann makan(eat) dhhen we walk q0 lucky plaza eat..iie share 1 bigg plate 0f dhhe mixed rice..=x

n0 lurhhs..jkjk! hahas..siia0..iie os0 dunn wann eat..just help my jie eat abit n0rhhs..budd endd upp os0 can0rtt eat finish..iie eat al0rtt ehh!!=x shh!xD

hahas..dhhen b0red lia0s we q0 take train q0 bugis!!=]

iie damn l0ng n0 q0 lia0s siaa..x.x
so siian dhhen iie sit 0n dhe fl0or lia0s dhhen jie,ver0n n cas os0 sit.xD

all bl0ck dhhe d0or lia0s..l0ls!=x

os0 sit awhile 0ni lurhhs..xD

dhhen q0 bugis walk walk..dhen q0 upp..jie bring miie q0 dhhhe sh0p datt sell g0thic ting n cl0uthes derhh..dhhen is like..

OMGGG!!!=X

haahas..iie madd again..x.x

budd bugis dhhe auntie dhere realli cheaper dhhen 0ther place ehh!!

**ANY1 WANNT TO BUY CHEAPER GOTHIC CLOUTHES CUM ASK MIIE,

IIE TELL EUU!!=]**

hahas!!=x damn niceee!!T.T iie dunn care lerhhs!!iie tis year must w0rk!!chi0ng w0rk!!

dhhen save $200 t0 buy 1 set 0f dhhe cl0thes n sh0e n 0ther g0thic tings!!

nn iie may be planing a 0uting 0r wadd dhhen iie invite all my gans n friends t0 wear g0thic cl0thes 0r sum unqiue cl0thes dhhen q0 0ut t0gether!!xDDD

datts my wisshhh!!

budd dun0 when cann realli d0 l0rhhs..x.x h0pefully next year derhh h0lidae bahh..=] as l0ng as iie cann chi0ng w0rk tis year..

tiis chrismas tree is taken at dhhe bugis junction..=]

verii nicee n cutee ehhs..hahas..xD

hmm..0kae lurhhs..c0unted as a happy dae l0rhhs..budd till nitex..

zzz.. iie hatee q0inq h0me..iie hatee seeeing my parents..

**NIGHTMARE!!!!!**

my mum..she t0t iie steal her m0ney again..

IIE WAS LIKE!!!!TMD CHEE BAII!!

iie l0ng l0ng l0ng time ag0 already didnt d0 all tis already l0rhhs!!

everytime dunn trust miie..iie gain crap fr0m tis h0use!!untrust!!

x.x ka0 peh-ing!!verii dae dhhe same..n0 nagging jiu cha0 jia!!

dhey n0rtt siian iie siian lia0s leyy!!iie dunn wann d0 silly tings..

realli..iie dunn wann..iie'm c0ntr0lling myself.. haiix..dunn wann sae lerhhs..pek keh derhhs..x.x haiix..iie realli dunn wanna trust myself anym0re..iie just hatee myself t0o much till cant f0rgive myself already..n0b0die n0es n n0b0diee care..T.T 5.57am..didnt sleep again..x.x

-恨BABY-xiia0zhuzhux

2008-12-24T04:42:00.000-08:00

lalals!!t0dae(23/12/08)..SIIANS!! my em0ti0n t0dae dun0 like wadd siaa..keep damn high dhhen suddenly damn l0w..x.x haiix..
btw,q0rtt new k0r..n datt is...NICHOLAS..=] my new BELOVED k0r..xD
wakakakaks..;x

budd t0dae he dunn seem happy n0rhhs..x.x haiix..iie os0 n0rtt clear wadd happen..
iie 0ni n0e he verii angriie n sadd..x.x iie n him realli t0o mani tings same lerhhs..T.T haiix..
dun0 is a q0od ting 0r a badd ting..x.x
lalalas..my m0od realli q0inq d0wn ehhs..T.T
haiix..

mayb sat q0inq cut my stupidd hair..x.x llalalalalas..iie'm B0RED!!iie dun0 h0w t0 tell my k0r dunn sadd ehhs..c0z iie n0e dhhe feeling 0f being lied by sum1 datt we l0ve..x.x s0bs..
he liddat iie keep tink 0f my pasttt~~~~
dhhe m0re iie tink dhhe m0re iie hatee myself..T.T
s0bs..

n0w 5.39am lerhhs..iie starting n0rtt t0 sleep again..x.x
all c0z 0f my stupidd m0od..T.T haiix..
see my k0r liddat..iie realli verii sadd siaa..sadd fer him n sadd fer myself..x.x
haiix!T.T

summ0re next week 2/11/09 sk0l re0pen lerhhs..T.T iie haben even b0ught my b0oks siaaa!OMG!=x
SIIANX!!iie dunn wann q0 back sk0l ehhs..T.T
iie dunn wann see my "ex" gans n friends datt hurted miie..iie see dhem iie sure m0od l0w derhh n0rhhs..T.T haiix..

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2008-12-21T10:42:00.000-08:00

hhahas!lalalas..
datt dae sh0o funn..miie,jie,la0po n dheir friends altogether 6 ppl w0rx..
q0 east c0ste plae untill siia0..ll0ls!;x
l0ng time n0 see derhh la0po finaly q0 0ut wibb miie..=]
wakakakas..=x 3 b0i 3 girl..D0RTS D0RTS!! ;x

c0mfirm is q0rtt cycle n plae my DDR derhh marhhs!!;x
budd we start wibb mac 1 w0rx..o.o my jie wann eat 1st..=.=
l0l..dhhen wait my la0po n her friends cum mac find us..=]
after datt we q0 arcade plae my DDR!!xD
FUNN!!budd 0ni jie pei miie plae..x.x my laopo dunn wann plae..
dhhen when we plaeing,dhhe three b0iis h0rx..VERII NOISY ehhs!! keep sit at dhere keep laugh n t0k sh0o l0ud..dhhen iie n my jie stress ehhs.. >:(
s0bs..dhhen my skills m0re lousy..siians!T.T

hahas..after datt we q0 cycle..=]
budd n0rtt same place derhh l0rhhs..c0z jie sae nearer t0 dhhe busst0p when we q0inq h0me..x.x
dhhen dhhe bike all like lousy lousy 0ld 0ld derhhs..;x
iie mean like abit rusty rusty l0rhhs.. dhhen sum t0o high 0r sum t0o l0w..=.=
dhhen later all q0rtt bike iie dunn habb..x.x
later dher uncle give miie 1 bike abit high budd still 0kae..
DHE W0RST IS,NO CUSHION ON DHHE SIT DERHH!!x.x

neber mind..b0 bian.. dhhen we just q0 ride l0rhhs.. we all chi0ng 1 siaa..hahas!!finaly q0rtt ppl chi0ng fast wibb miie lia0s..budd is dhhe b0is..=.=
hahas..dhhen later iie q0rtt buang..T.T
NO MY FUALT!!is dhhe girl!! iie sl0w d0wn already..she n0rtt in her lane n dhhen she like turning t0 her lane so iie didnt st0p..iie just sl0w d0wn n ring my bike bell nia..
budd end upp she didnt sl0w d0wn n head straight t0 miie..x.x
N DHHEN IIE BUANG!!!s0bs..T.T
0kaes lurhhs..n0 w0unds..=] budd my left leg knee dun0 yy quite pain..T.T!
iie didnt tell jie dhey all..just kept quiet..x.x

lalalas..dhhen later iie keep ALMOST kena buang again sia!!BADD daee!!T.T
n iie hai my laopo friend q0 t0 dhhe grass..;x
hahahas!!=x hu tell him(dhhe black shirt,nicholas) arhhs..
iie tell him dunn cum beside 0r behind miie lia0s budd he still cum..;x
is liddat,iie was cycling t0 jie n her friend direction dhhen suddenly dhey turn back..o.o!
dhhen iie os0 studdenly st0p l0rhhs..dhhen iie didnt n0e my laopo friend was behind miie.. dhhen he neber bangg miie budd when he cum beside miie,iie screamed..=x
dhhen he like suddenly hear iie scream dhhen he q0 int0 dhhe grass dhere l0rhhs..=x
ahhs..S0RRIE!!(tis s0rrie ish fer dhhe black shirt,nicholas) my fualt..x.x
budd next time PLS!!n0rtt 0ni t0 him budd t0 all my friends n gans datt q0inq 0ut wibb miie,DUN RIDE BESIDE OR BEHIND MIIE!!
c0z iie dunn wann euu all BUANG c0z 0f miie..x.x

hahas..hmm.. ride tired lia0s dhhen we ride up t0 sum place dhhen sit d0wn n0rhhs..
dhhen we all chit chat..=]
ahas..my jie derhh friend(dhhe white shirt) verii funny budd keep make ppl pek keh 1 siaa..;x
iie meaning dhhe white shirt 1..=x hahas!!iie dun0 h0w sae his name os0..x.x
didnt ask..o.o
hmm..dhhen awhile lia0s we ride back t0 give back dhe bike n0rhhs..

dhhen my laopo,her friend n dhhe white shirt derhh q0rtt t0 q0..T.T siians..
dhhen we sae BUAII BUAII~ dhhen iie n my jie,her another friend q0 beach walk walk awhile..=]
hmm..dhhen verii tired ehhs..x.x
dhhen we take bus q0 h0me lerhhs l0rhhs..
reach h0me,1 slap n nagging 0ni..=] 0kaes lurhhs.. verii q0od lerhhs..=] hahas..

sh0o funn q0inq t0 east c0ste!!=]
iie swear!!
IF IIE CANN,IIE WILL DO BBQ ON DHE DAE BEFORE MY BIRTHDAE AT EAST C0STE!!;D
dhhen cann t0n at dhere..=]
hmm..will c0r m0st 0f my gans n friends q0 if iie cann.. hahas!
dae endds here..=]

-恨BABY-xiiaozhux

2008-12-13T06:58:00.000-08:00

t0dae(13/12/08)..haiix.. iie t0t iie realli ferget him..budd iie still cant..
iie realli tried verii hardd t0 f0rget him..
just n0w when t0king t0 jie,iie dun0 yy..
she sae quite sum w0rds n make miie tink 0f him again..
iie alm0st everybb0die realli t0t iie f0rget him lerhhs..
euu may/cann see iie smile n laughing wh0le dae..laughing n smiling**..
iie os0 h0pe iie cann..budd iie'm just trying n0rtt t0 tink ab0ut all unhappy tings..

iie'm realli happy when iie q0 0ut wibb my friends n gans..budd dhe w0rld ish bigg..
n sum tings iie see,iie will just tink 0f unhappy tings n0 matter h0w happy iie am..
ppl just dunn understand miie..
iie already hadd ch0se tis path..n tis path,iie cant turn backk..
its a wr0ng path..iie realli veri nan shu0(feel verii badd) lerhhs..
iie cant turn back n iie cant c0ntinue walking..iie'm stil wandering in dhhe midder 0f n0 where..
haiix..

iie realli dun0..c0uld it be,iie realli need sum1 t0 help n pull miie 0ut?iie realli dun0 wadd t0 d0..
iie realli tryy hateing him..budd end upp when iie tink 0f him,iie m0re sadd..
T.T haiix..unhappiness memories are like my shad0w..
will f0ll0w miie where ever iie q0..n0 matter wadd iie d0 iie cant change dhhe facts!!
haiix..
my headd realli pain..iie realli dun0 yy since thursdae,my head will pain at nitex..
aiyaas..shit lurhhs..m0st q0od brain cancer..=]

hahas..siians!n0ting t0 d0 lia0s lurhhs..6.38am lerhhs!!x.x iie realli becuming xian sia..=]
dhhen if iie realli be xiian,iie will b0r bi(pray) everyb0die datt care b0ut miie..n0rtt 0ni ppl datt care f0r miie,os0 ppl datt iie care..x.x
haiix..LALALAS!
mayb next week q0inq east c0ste againn..wanna q0 dhere walk walk..x.x
siians!

-恨xiia0zhux

2008-12-12T03:16:00.000-08:00

siians..t0dae(11/12/08) siians!
ytd(10/12/08) we q0 east c0ste..starting we plan miie,jie n swseetiie q0..dhhen iie ask papa sae cant q0 marhh dhen endd up papa last min cann make it..budd ish like verii last min derhh last min ley..=.=
hahas..dhhen iie need meet my c0ntact lens supplier t0 take mine n sukii jie's c0ntact lens marhs..dhhen have t0 rush t0 yishun l0rhhs..x.x
dhhen we at yishun wear 0ur c0ntact lens..
sukii jie wear her red c0l0ur lens iie wear my angel violet..;D
dhhen after yishun we q0 take bus cum back my h0use here t0 take bus q0 east c0ste l0rhhs..
quite tr0ubles0me ley!;x
hahas..

reach east c0ste lia0s we q0 rent bike l0rhhs..2h0urs f0r $6..=]
4 bike alt0gether..must put tw0 ez-link at dhe sh0p ley..dhhen c0mfirm iie dunn wann put marhhs..c0z mine n0 ne0-print 0r stickers..dhhen my face dun0 like wadd..x.x
dhhen papa n liping sweetheart put l0rhhs..
we starting jiu cycle fast m0de..hahas!xD
funn..budd iie jiu start having c0ld sweat lerhhs..c0z iie sick marhh..T.T
n iie didnt eat wh0le dae..didnt drink os0..x.x
budd heng iie neber langa(accident) arhh!!;x

dhhen later cycle st0p awhile t0 rest l0rhhs c0z we q0 wr0ng way..=.=
actually we wanna q0 mac dhen q0 dun0 where..x.x
haiix..dhhen later realli habb gastric lia0s..T.T
siians derhhs ley..x.x
everytime gastric..haiix.. dhhen awhile we q0 ride t0 mac l0rhhs..dhhen wait dhey eay finish dhhen time alm0st up lerhh,we jiu ride back n give back dhhe bike l0rhhs..
dhhen we walk back t0 mac dhere..we q0inq funland..=]
hahas..plae my ddr(dance dance revoluti0n)..;D
heex heex..cb ley.. my standard q0 d0wn again..budd alm0st same standard as papa..=]
heex heex..;DD

after datt ish ab0ut at nitex 7+pm lerhh..we jiu q0 walk walk beach..=]
verii nice ley..=] dhhe light..dhhe wind.. dhhe s0und 0f sea..
xDDD iie l0ve it..budd,we(liping,sukii&miie) stand in dhhe water dhhen sumh0w we saw abit 0f shad0w in dhhe sea..n0 j0ke..realli!T.T
fer miie,iie 0ni rmb datt whhen iie keep l0ok int0 dhhe sea,iie feel like walking inner n inner..
iie feel it sh0o nicee..budd dhey keep pull mmiie 0ut..T.T
budd iie still feel like q0inq back ehhs..iie os0 dun0 yy..
just a feeling..o.o
dhhen later iie suddenly became abit blur blur lia0s..o.o
iie 0ni rmb we q0 mac t0 wash 0ur hands n legs..dhhen later jie os0 same bahh..
iie dun0 wadd happen?o.o

dhhe next m0rning iie wake upp iie already at h0me..o.o
n iie tried rmb wadd happen ytd..
budd my mind was blank fr0m ytd nitexx after dhhe mac..x.x
iie asked papa n sweetheart,n guess wadd..dhey tell miie n my jie q0 temple..=.=
like wthh..dhey sae we kena possessed..zzz
jie sae iie n her was sleep in dhhe bus when we c0ming back..o.o
budd papa n sweetiie sae iie was crying f0r n0ting n biteing my hand..o.o
n jie was laughing f0r n0ting os0..o.o
budd we dunn rmb anyting ehhs..?o.o

iie 0ni n0e,my hand realli was red n pain when iie wake upp..x.x
abit teeth mark os0..o.o
iie realli dun0 wadd happen..dhhen papa sae dunn let miie q0 east c0tse lia0s..T.T
iie tell him n0w os0 n0ting happen lerhhs marhh..iie must q0 east c0tsse derhhs..
iie like q0 dhere..x.x
summ0re if iie next year if iie cann,mayb iie making bbq at east c0ste l0rhhs..x.x
dhhen he sae cann q0 budd after 7pm cant q0 d0wn water..T.T
s0bs!!T.T

aiyaas..dhhen iie 0kae l0rhhs..x.x
siians lurhhs..budd iie still realli dun0 wadd happen ley..x.x
haiix..n0 matter wadd,n0w os0 n0ting happen..=]

-恨xiia0zhux

2008-12-10T06:24:00.000-08:00

wahhs!siians!!ytd my left ear dhe 2nd n 3rd h0le cl0se half half marhh..dhhen iie use dhe ear stud(when piercing time derhh) try p0k l0rhhs..dhhen endd upp tw0 h0le q0rtt lerhhs budd l0st my bl0od..=.=
al0rtt ehhs..haiix..

dhhen t0dae(9/12/08),iie like D0G liddat..haiix.. all c0z 0f tmr(10/12/08)..
iie plan t0 q0 east c0ste tmr wibb jie n sweetiie..n iie t0ld dhem already.. actually iie ji0 my papa q0 os0..budd he cant make it..he sae his sister birthdae 0n 11/12 dhhen need prepare tings dhhen cant q0 0ut..T.T..haiix..next time iie dunn even n0e when dhey q0 0ut dhhen ji0 miie q0 iie cann q0 an0rtt l0rhhs..0fc0z 0ni 1 reas0n wadd..=.= (dunn ask miie..just read 0n n euu n0e..=])
dhhen n0w,my m0ther suddenly n0e b0t dhhe planning fer tmr..dhhen iie die lerhh l0rhhs..c0z she dunn let miie q0 0ut derhh..x.x dhhen iie wh0le dae like D0G liddat l0rhhs..she c0r miie d0 aniting jiu d0 aniting..c0r miie q0 dhere jiu q0 dhere..cum here jiu cum here..like wthh siaa..T.T

haiix..all bec0z iie h0pe datt tmr her m0od cann dunn sh0o "hot"..dhhen mayb iie cann sneak 0ut 0r even if she m0od q0od,mayb she will let..haiix..
B0 BIAN!!
iie tell my gans n everyting plan 0kae lerhhs..ppl datt n0e miie will sh0uld n0e datt iie ish a ppers0n datt if iie sae,iie will try my best t0 make it..
even if can0rt make it(cmi) iie realli b0 biian lerhhs..n if iie realli cmi,PLS! TIS N0RTT C0R PANG SEH KKAES 0r PENG WEI..x.x
iie dunn wann later if iie can0rt make it dhhen end upp iie q0rtt a PSK in my name pls!x.x

all my friends datt n0e miie sh0uld n0e wadd my difficurty(dun0 h0w spell;x) marhh..dhhe biggest reas0n c0mfirm ish related t0 my parents wadd..=.=
haiix..iie 0ni h0pe datt iie will be able t0 q0 meet my jie n my sweetiie tmr niaa..

siians..dhhen my suppier 0f dhhe c0ntact cum already dhhen cann meet tmr t0 c0llect dhhe lens..=]
budd,ALL HER TIME N PLACE T0 MEET CMI DERHH LEYY!!zzz.. dhhen die lerhhs..summ0re n0w my sweetiie neber reply miie AGAIN..0mg!T.T s0bs..haiix..my brain wann BURST lia0s..T.T 1st my ear,2nd must be D0G wh0le dae(summ0re n0rtt c0mfirm cann q0 0ut l0rhh=.=),3rd my supplier,4th my sweetiie,5th IIE STILL MUST DIG M0NEY F0R TMR T0 PAY DHHE CYCLING N PLAEING..0MG!!iie dyingx.x

an0ther pr0blem,iie haben sleep yet ley..=.=
5.37 AM ALREADY!!like wthh..if later iie faint half way cycling iie suree laughhh!!LOLS ;x
siians siians siians!need m0ney like dun0 wadd leyy..need buy n d0 sh0o mani tings..T.T haiix..
still must cut my STUPIDD HAIR..T.T
retarded hair..h0peless hair..m0st imp0rtand,H0PELESS MIIE ;D
hahas..pai sehh iie t0o b0 lia0s..x.x

haiix..os0 dun0 wear wadd q0 l0rhhs..aiyaas iie wear aniting os0 dhhe same.. UGLY is dhhe w0rd..=] arhhs! *B0MB*
;x still haben die..=.=
aiyaas iie lame iie n0e..c0z iie n0ting t0 d0..XD
MADDNESS is better dhen if iie n0 m0od ritex..x.x
aiyaass iie dunn wann sae th0se tings..later iie realli m0od swing iie die..x.x

lalalas!=] btw,iie 0nline eveydae lerhhs..c0z my father's lap t0p let miie make sp0ilt lerhhs..;x
c0z iie everydae use t0o l0ng..dhhen n0w dhhe "fan" inside sp0ilt..zzz..
siians!

-恨 xiia0zhux

2008-12-05T05:49:00.000-08:00

haiix..t0dae(05/12/08) didnt sleep again!n0w(06/12/08) 7.35am..
hahas!! just n0w t0k tu papa dhhen t0k t0k t0k,iie t0k t0 him,b0 reply lerhhs..=.=
fall asleep again..hahas!!;x
aiyaas iie later dhhen sleep bahhs..b0 bian..
pr0mise him will sleep t0dae..=.= zzz..

lalalas!!wahh biang ehh!!iie see gothic lolita tings 0r cl0thess iie will q0 madd ley!!x.x
IIE WANN BUY!!!fck siaa..n0w n0 m0neyyyy...
haiix!!!dun0 must WAIT H0W L0NG dhhen cann buy dhhe gothic lolita cl0thesss iie like l0rhh..x.x

www.haru-goth.blogspot.com
www.haru-house.blogspot.com

tis tw0 web iie q0 see iie suree kisia0 derhh!!T.T
s0bs!!!iie wann buy leyyyy..x.x haiix..must buy my FCKKING HAIR STRAIGHTERNER 1st dhhen cann buy 0ther tings..
0therwise,iie suree dunn feeel like q0inq 0ut derhh l0rhhs..x.x

iie must save dhhe fcking every centssss iie have n0w l0rhhs..cant even q0 plae my DANCE DANCE MANICA l0rhh!!;x
hahas..iie addict-ed t0 it lerhhs..xD
always q0 plae wibb sukii jie derhhs..hahas!
haiix..tinking 0f m00ney..make my head m0re PAIN ARRHHS!!x.x
still finding dhhe _l_ j0bs l0rhhs..x.x

haiix!!!gtg 0ff lappy s0on os0..father waking upp lerhhs..dhhen he must bring his lappy q0 w0rk lia0s..dhhen iie R0T AT H0ME lerhh!!T.T
s0bs..SUFFER!!!!c0z my m0ther os0 at h0me..=.= summ0re she ish DRUNK!!
haiix!! die lerhhs l0rhhs..she drunk again..x.x dead..
lalalas!!

-恨 xiia0zhux

2008-12-03T03:21:00.000-08:00

haiix..t0dae(02/12/08) iie os0 dun0 wadd happen t0 miie..
my m0od ish like damn l0w liddat n0rhhs..
x.x andd dun0 yy t0dae my papa keep sae tings datt n make miie tink 0f 'HIM"..
haiix..

iie os0 n0e 3rd party will feel verii terrible..
c0z iie q0rtt be 3rd party b4 wadd!! summ0re ish dhhe m0st hurtful 1..
budd os0 n0 b0diie care derhh lurhhs.. iie 0ni cann blame myself..T.T
iie cant bblame any1.. haiix.. iie'm still crying n bleeding inside..
budd just putting fake smiless 0n my face 0ni..

iie hatee ppl sae iie pang seh kia!!..c0z 'HE' oso c0r miie psk(pang seh kia) b4..
iie hatee it m0st l0rhhs!.. x.x
nn papa t0dae sae iie ps..like wth lurhhs..
nn n0w? iie tink 0f 'HIM' m0re..dhhe memories.. dhhe unhappiness m0ree dhhen dhhe happiness..haiix..iie t0t iie cann sleep t0nitex..
budd n0w iie dunn tink will sleep lerhhs..n0 m0od.. haiix..

iie habing gastric n0w..painful..budd inside miie ish m0re painfull..T.T
fever,head spinning os0..
haiix..gastric t0o mani time untill si guan lerhhs..x.x
yy cant iie just faint n die siaa..zzz.. cann just end everyting n w0nt tink 0f any1 anym0re..;D
iie os0 dun0 t0dae ish dhhe h0w mani dae iie didnt sleep lerhhs..
iie h0pe datt if iie sleep,dhhen w0nt wake upp again..datts dhhe best..=]
haiix..MY HEAD VERII PAIN n spinning!!!x.x

haiix..**iie BEG EVERY 0F MY FRIENDS!!
PLS ST0P SAEING IIE PANG SEH CANN!!if iie cant make it t0 meet euu all,ITS N0RTT IIE DUNN WANN!!**iie c0mfirm habb my reas0ns..
n its N0RTT c0r PANG SEH!!
iie realli DUNN LIKE PPL t0 sae iie pang seh when iie realli cant make it!!

YY CANT ANY1 UNDERSTAND MIIE!!
iie said iie w0nt pang seh ppl if iie cann ritex!! yy must every1 keep sae iie pang seh!!..n01 understand..n0 b0diie will ever understand!!
yy..yy must every1 treat miie liddat..T.T iie'm crying again..
iie realli wanna hatee 'HIM'.. iie wanna see iie get my revage fr0n 'HIM'..
budd..iie realli dun0 myself..iie hatee myself m0re..
haiix..T.T n0w already 4.02am in dhe m0rning..w0nt be sleep..>.<

-恨 xiia0zhux

2008-12-02T04:59:00.000-08:00

siians..n0ting tuu d0 derhh..x.x
t0dae(01/12/08) iie,sukii jie n SH papa q0 0ut..=]
ish iie wann papa q0 derhh..o.o
iie still must run 0ut derhh l0rhh..my m0ther atually dunn wanna iie gg0 0ut derhh..b0 bian..iie pr0mise my bel0ved gan(jie)(papa) datt iie will g0 meet dhem marhh..iie dunn pang seh my gans unless iie realli can0rt make it..if 0nce iie c0mfirm wibb all my gans,iie diie os0 will g0 derhh..=]

lalalas..dhhen we g0 bishan j8 library..we guaii h0rx?xD
hahas..we g0 dhere bl0w air-c0n lurhhs..;x hahas..
afterno0n damn h0t l0rhhs..x.x siians..g0 untill dhere at library slack untill dun0 wadd time dhhen we g0 n0rhhs..dhhen g0 anyh0w walk walk..gai gai=]
hahas..dhhen later damn b0red lerhhs..
summ0re j8 sh0o smallll..x.x

dhhen we was tinking ab0ut plaeing auditi0n..xDD
hahas..dhhen iie jiu bring g0 lan n0rhhs.. iie damn l0ng neber t0uch audi lerhhs ley!!T.T
missed it sh0o much..hahas!;x
g0 untill dhere dhhen 0n c0m lerhh..guess wadd?
DHHE FUCKING AUDITI0N G0T PATCH..wtfff!!
dhhen cant plae..x.x we plae untill 6plus jiu g0 lerhh l0rhhs..os0 n0ting t0 plae..zzz..
tmd ley..we q0 dhere is wann plae audi derhh ley..dhhen end upp at dhere r0t!!zzz..
pek keh leyy!!T.T

siians lerhhs..dhhen just g0 back bishan area slack l0rhhs..we g0 playgr0undd..we still kidds!;x
heex heex..xD at dhhe playgr0und listen t0 0ur f0ne derhh s0ng n t0k t0k l0rhhs..os0 n0ting mmuch cann d0..x.x dhen later sukii jie n SH papa suddenly t0k ab0ut 'HIM'..dhhen,iie tink 0f him os0..n my eyes wet lia0s..T.T
haiix..lalalas!x.x
dhhen my papa gtg lerhhs..dhhen jiu buaiix buaiix l0rhhs..iie n sukii jie walk t0 busst0p n papa g0 take MRT..siians narhhs..

dhhen later reach h0me,straight kena sc0ld..my m0ther sc0ld miie f0r n0rtt answer dhhe f0ne n c0z iie sneak 0ut..sneak 0ut sc0ld neber mind l0rhhs..
budd,ish n0rtt iie dunn wann answer her c0r derhh..my f0ne n0 m0neyy h0w answer?!!zzz...iie explain t0 her already she still slap miie..
like wth lurhhs?dhey dunnw ann buy t0p upp card f0r miie dhhen h0w dhhe hell dhey wann my f0ne t0 every q0rtt m0ney siaa..cb ley!!
slap slap slap..da pai 0ni n0e h0w slap miie niaas..zzz!!
knn ley..iie n0 sk0l n0 m0ney wadd..dhhen h0w iie save m0ney t0 buy my FCKING t0p upp card leyy?!cb!x.x DHEY FCKING UNREAS0NABLE LURHHS!!

dhhen iie wann find j0b os0 cant find..ish hard f0r miie..c0z 0f my parents lurhs!!dhey dunn let miie w0rk..x.x
if dhey let,iie c0mfirm q0rtt j0b t0 d0 derhh l0rhh..haiix..
os0 dun0 h0w sae dhem lerhhs..everytime see iie suffer dhey like verii happy liddat..=.=
haiix..b0 bian..tiis my life!!
iie t0ld my gans n friends b4 lerhh..iie cum tiis w0rld 0ni f0r suffering..pain..
unhappiness..saddness..haiix!
dunn wann sae lerhh..sae lerhhs iie m0re siians!T.T

n0w 5.33am lerhhs..still haben sleep..haiix..iie keep tink 0f him..iie realli dun0 wadd iie tinking lurhhs..iie sh0uld be hate him l0rhhs..budd even when last time my gans wann g0 settle wiib 'HIM' iie dunn wann dhey g0..even dhey wann g0 iie os0 tell dhem dunn make tr0ble..c0z 'HE' leg q0rtt tagging.. dhhen if kena anyting dhhen he jiu die die lerhhs..x.x
aiyaas..iie os0 dun0 wadd happen t0 miie l0rhhs..'HE' hurt miie sh0o much n n0w iie still care f0r him..like wth lurhhs..x.x haiix..iie dunnw ann tink lerhhs..
siians!

-恨 xiia0zhux

2008-11-29T00:42:00.000-08:00

its quite l0ng time since ii write bl0gg lerhhs..x.x
n0 time..n0 m0od..N0 C0MPUTER!!thats dhhe pr0blem..=.=

siianx..
very time badd tings happen..n always 0n miie..ii os0 wanna n0e yy..x.x
ii'm n0rtt tinking nagative..ii'm just saeing dhhe facts that ii tink ii sh0uld at least n0e myself..butt euu all sae ii keep tink nagative..
0kae,even if ii tink nagative,yy sh0uldnt iie?must ii always be tinking p0sitive?=.= ii'm n0rtt datt kind 0f pers0n that are happy q0 lucky 0kae!!
ii happy os0 unlucky..dhhen wadd f0r ii be happy?..haiix..

ii really dunn understand..yy b0ys are always liddat..
like t0 break girls heart int0 mili0n n mili0n 0f pieces?..
dhhe HIM datt' HELP' miie q0 back t0 dhhe last time 'miie'(nagativeeee)..x.x
ii really wanna hatee him..butt ii just cant..
even if ii wann even if ii really hatee,wadd else cann ii d0..ii cant d0 anyting t0 him wadd..unless wann ii make each 0ther die?*tong gui yu jing*o.o hmm mayb ii sh0uld tink ab0ut it?=x

haiix..ii just cant st0p tinking 0f h0w he make my life sh0o miserable..
sum my friends may sae,he c0z miie t0 have n0 future(if ii c0ntinue liddat)..x.x
ii really dun0 lurhhs..everytime g0 0ut wibb my sisters n friends,ii must always make myself t0 try t0 put a fake smilesss 0n my face..
ii'm realli tired 0f it lerhh..really...T.T
ii wanna end all tiis..FAST!!..but mayb sh0uld take sum revenge 1st?=x
aiyaaa...ii dun0 lurhhs..n0w my mind q0rt tw0 miie..
1 ish dunn wann hatee him,cant hatee..
dhhen an0ther 1,wanna hatee him,hatee him untill wann take revenge n0 matter wadd..
which 1 sh0uld iie listen?my s0ul realli break int0 tw0 already..

sum time ii hatee him like wann kill him..
dhhen sum time,tinking 0f him,my tears will just fall d0wn my cheaks n0n-st0p..haiix..

ii will be veri veri m0ody whenever nitex time 0r mid nitex,ii will just start t0 tink all kind 0f tings..0ut 0f n0 where..n dhhen,my tears will always start falling n0n-st0p..
everytime dhhe same..alm0st every nitex iie'm crying..

-恨 xiia0zhux